Simply Heidi

I came across this song…that I totally love. I fell in love with this song when I first moved to Chile. And I clung to it during happy and sad times. Marcos Witt wrote the song from one of the Psalms. I really miss Chile this week. I don’t know what it is. I just miss it.  If you don’t speak Spanish then you better get your translator out. Or maybe tomorrow when I am not so tired I will translate it for ya’ll.
Temprano yo te buscare
de madrugada yo me acercare a ti
mi alma te ahnela y tiene sed
para ver tu gloria y tu poder

Mi socorro haz sido tu
y en la sombra de tus alas
yo te buscare
mi alma esta apegada a ti
porque tu diestra me ha sostenido
oh tu diestra me ha sosteni i i do

Well today we had to call 911 cause my baby girl put something in her mouth and was choking. I was at a friends house when it happened. I was freaking out, she was getting red, and gasping. I was trying to pull it out with my finger, then she had some blood come out. Tried flipping her over and hitting her back. Nothing, so I said, we need to call 911 NOW. So we did. By the time they got there she was starting to do better. We did find a piece of something that looked like velum paper that was in her mouth. It was so scary. I have been holding her all afternoon. I can not even let me mind go to the “What If’s!” I am just happy that the Lord was watching over her. And me so I would not have a heart attack. I am CPR certified. But when it is your own baby in distress…all my reason went out the window. If it would have been someone else’s baby I would have been calm. I am just praying that nothing like this ever happens again. The Lord watches over all who Love HIM. And I am thankful today that he did.

So today I have been reflecting my friendships. Past and Present. Have you ever felt like there was something in the way of one of your friendships, but you don’t know what it is.  I feel like that with one of my friendships. It is the strangest thing. I can not put my finger on it. I cherish my friendships that I have. If you are my friend then you are a friend of mine for life. And when a friendship is hurting, it makes me hurt. Or have you seen one of your friends start down a path that did not make sense. And you on the outside could see where it was heading but they couldn’t. And when you try to talk to them about it they just get upset. And you know you are right. And they are just trying to rationalize to make themselves feel better about what there doing. So what do you do, just sit back and watch, try to intervene. I am a fixer. So my first instinct would be to try and help. Or what about if your friend starts doing something and then it starts to really interfere with your friendship. Friendship can be a complex thing, or maybe I am making it more complex than it should be. Or when a friend hurts you. Hhmmm, maybe I need to listen to one of my pastor’s sermons called a Pebble In My Shoe. So today I am feeling a bit hurt. I normally am able to just shake stuff off, but this one thing is really getting under my skin. And it is making me upset. And I feel like I have lost a friend. And that is down right upsetting. So what am I going to do…well how do some homemade chocolate chip cookies and a big glass of milk sound??

So my root canal went good. Was not nearly as painful as I thought it would be.But my jaw really hurt when it was all done and it still hurts actually. Thank goodness we live in a country where you can get Advil. Me and my  new porcelain tooth look interesting. At least it is not silver and it looks like I have some bling, bling in my mouth!
Today me and my sister in law planted our garden, we have so many wonderful things growing. I am really anxious to see things sprout up. She also helped me to plant the rest of my bulbs in the front of the house. And I cant wait to see all my flowers come up. As soon as they do you can guarantee that I will be posting some pictures.

We had Ben’s party. He wanted a bug party. So we made a snake cake. Or I attempted to make a snake cake. It was lots of fun. My sister brought her boyfriend Kyle to the party. It was good to see him interact with all the family…and he interacts good….I like him lots, and am happy that my sister is so happy. He sent her flowers today and she was so excited. I told him he scored lots of points with that…..Cha-Ching!!!!!!

I am seriously thinking about opening an online store. I want to Call it Simply Baby. I want to try and sell some things on there that I make. So I am processing it all right now, what to sell, how much…. Tony said he would build me a store off this website. I am really praying about it. We will see how it all goes.

Right now we are having some issues with Bryce. I know it is his medicine he is on. I have a call into his doctor to see about switching it. He has got to be on something else. Or better yet, Jesus please just heal him. I have total confidence that he can.

I also really want to go on a missions trip. Missions is in my blood. I was raised doing it. I love it. I love giving people the hope that I have in Jesus. I would love to go back to Chile. I love the Chilean people. They are so kind and loving. They are so receptive of the gospel. It makes me upset how everything is so self service here in the USA and people just think they don’t need God. Or they just want him to be there sugar daddy when things get tough and then when things are great they don’t need him anymore. What kind of relationship is that???? Jesus is there only Hope. I better stop or I could right a sermon.

Going to lay down for a nap. Have a great day!

Isnt she the cutest baby ever?

Benjamin and his Snake Cake

This is my FAVORITE drink at Starbucks. I do not recommend this sugar free. If you are going to drink it enjoy every bit of fat in it! IT IS SO GOOD. I could drink one every single day!

This is Kyle and Holly. Aren’t they so cute. I know it is a bit blurry….I like the way he dresses. And Yes Holly I like the way you dress to!

More cake goodness. Of course he only ate the icing all off the top of it! What a big boy he is. And don’t you just love his curly hair. I hope it always stays like that!

So we had a wonderful time on our getaway. We ate at all our favorite restaurants…lots of coffee…swimming…hot tubs….movies….bowling…. it was just fun to be with my hubby without all our little kids. We love them but so needed the break. We just had so much fun together. At the bowling ally it was about 9:30 and all the lights went low and the disco lights came on and then the black lights so I was glowing since I had a white shirt on. There were lots of Latins in there and before 9:30 they were all bowling normally as soon as the lights went low they were dancing. It is in there blood to move to the rhythm. It reminded me of being in Chile. So it made miss Chile. On our last night Bryce had an asthma attack so we had to take him to the ER at 10:30 at night. And stayed till 2:30 am. We were so tired that we just brought him back to our hotel for the night and the next morning Tony brought him back home. He is doing better now, but he is on more medicine and steroids and we will begin allergy shot therapy. It is a 4-5 year commitment. Shots every week….I wish he did not have such bad allergies and asthma, but he does. So now just trying to decide what is the best treatment for him. The steroids are making him so emotional and “un poco loco” thankfully it is only for 2 weeks. But we are having to buy a nebulizer and do breathing treatments at home on top of the 2 inhalers. YUCKY STUFF. I am really asking the Lord to heal him, but until that happens we will use medicine to help him out.
My sister has been here all week with me. It has been so much fun. We have been hanging out with her boyfriend. That has been fun. He is sweet and seems to like Holly alot so that makes me happy if she is happy. It is different though. I am just not used to seeing her with a guy…kind of weird but in a good way. She has helped out with the kids this week so much. I wish she lived in Dallas and I am trying to convince her to move here soon!

Not much else going on in my life. I am still painting and will be posting some pictures soon of the rooms that I have finished. I will be so happy when that is done. I am still working on my friend Joys baby gift. I guess it will be her first birthday gift since I am so incredible slow on the machine. But I know she will like it when she gets it. Well my baby girl is cooing at me and I must pick her up and hold her. Have a great night

So tomorrow morning me and Tony are getting away for a couple of days…without kids…..YEAH….I love my kids to death, but I love my husband more. I am so excited. We are going to just hang out…go bowling, movies, dinners, breakfast. Just relax. My sister is watching the kids, and our children’s pastors are watching Kaitlyn. I am still nursing her so I am a bit worried about that. I will be pumping while we are gone. I hope she will want to keep nursing when I get back.   And I have never been away from her for a long time. Even though I am happy for the break, I know that I am going to really miss the kiddos. It is nice to know that they will be well taken care of. That helps the peace in my mind.

I am loving having my sister here. I love hanging out with her. And I really love laughing with her. I wish my other sister could have come as well.
So today two Jehovah Witness’s came to our door. And they were trying to convince me of there religion, and I let them know what I believe, I told them I did not have a relegion, but that I had Jesus. And then I asked them to come with me to church one Sunday and then asked to pray for them, and then they were done talking to me.

Well that is it. I will have lots of pictures next week to post after our getaway. But I wont be writing till then.  OH I painted my kitchen Lemon Souffle. I will have to post pictures of it as well. Now to work on the bathrooms. Oh so much work. But so worth the end result.

Have a great weekend!

Yesterday we celebrated Ben’s 3rd birthday. We went to Mc Donald’s to celebrate. We were going to go to Chuck E Cheese, but they raised there prices and with all the kids that were going to be there plus adults…and much debate…we went the cheaper route. The kids all had so much fun. Tomorrow night we will celebrate again with just family over. I have not decided on what kind of cake to do. I think I will have him look at some options and then try my hand at it.

While at Target Tony bought me a new coffee pot, in hopes that I will stop going to Starbucks. I am really trying….I just love going there. I love the ambiance of it, I love there coffee, I love the baristas, I love there pastries, I am a hopless Starbucks addict!!! Anyways, while in Target my oldest heard me talking about this, so we checked out and then went over to the Starbucks counter for my last cup… I noticed he went over to the counter and was talking to the lady, so I moved my cart so I could hear better, but so that he could not see me. And he was trying to buy me a gift card with his only DOLLAR. How sweet is that????!!! What a gem he is! They could not do it cause there has to be a 5 dollar minimum. So he took his dollar and bought me a bunny.

Today I went to the dreaded dentist. I need a root canal and a crown…I hate going to the dentist. I just went ahead and let him know that I did not like him, but would reevaluate him at the end. He just laughed.  I told him he did good, but the real test would be to see how the root canal goes. Oh man my tooth hurts…I have to wait a week for the root canal….

Well I have so much more that I could write but I need to get some cleaning done today, so I will try to write it all out tomorrow.

So we are getting ready for Ben’s birthday party this weekend. He will be 3! I can not believe it. The time has flown by. I remember him being in the ICU and I would think will he ever get out, then he got out and I thought will he ever be 1…now he is 3. He got a new bike from his nana and papa evans. Which I am happy about because him and Chandler would always fight over Chandler’s. Thank you nana and papa!

Tomorrow Bryce has his kick off for the season…baseball…he is so excited. He has pictures early in the morning. He also got asked to join the jump rope team at school, which is exciting for him as well. Of course that means that I am just busier running him around to stuff. In the fall Chandler wants to play basketball. Plus he will be in Kindergarten. That is weird too. I have been talking with Tony about homeschooling the kids. We are just TALKING about it. I am just nervous about all the stuff that goes on in public school and the stuff Bryce has learnt about. I just want to protect there minds. I know I cant protect them from everything. Maybe a private school is the answer. But then that costs lots of money. Especially if we want all 4 to go to one. I know they can hear stuff in Private Christian schools as well, but it is not as bad. I grew up in a private Christian school, so I know. I dont know what the answer is. But I am certainly praying about it.

Yesterday, at Target. We were checking out and Benjamin told the cashier that he was going to make her fish food. Thank you NEMO!!!! Most of our funny stories happen at Target…cause that is where we shop. Anyways, of reminding him that we dont talk to people like that, he gave me a big sloppy kiss on the cheek to make it better. And told me how much he loved me. Okay they want to go out and play. I have more to write but it will have to wait till there are down for there naps!

Wow. I have so many projects on my plate right now. Especially at home. I have torn down wall paper in 3 of the rooms. What a disaster….I HATE wallpaper and WILL NEVER use it as long as I live. We have purchased all the paint for the rooms.  I better have some major biceps when I am done with all this. We have cut down lots of branches outside that need to be piled in the drive for the trash. I have so much laundry to do since I have been working on all these other projects. That is one project that never ends…

I was talking with another mom today and she was saying how the teacher thinks her child is ADD or ADHD. Can I tell you I think too many teachers want to medicate the kids instead of using there gifting in the classroom and helping them work through stuff.  I have met the kid and he is NOT THAT. So crazy. Why do we want to slap medicine on everything. Yes I know that sometimes medicine is needed.Some have mentioned to me that my kids could be that as well. NO my kids are boys… they act like boys…they are disciplined, don’t get me wrong but they are not ADD or ADHD. Now there was a time when I thought my oldest could be, but after talking with his doctor in depth…he is not. I think teachers need to read the book Wild at Heart by John Eldridge, or anyone that has boys should read the book.
So here is where I am at: trying to figure out my purpose in life. Am I to just be a MOM for the next 5 years while finishing raising these little monkeys. Should I not be involved in anything else. Just stay home and do the whole mommy thing. By doing that I will then be 33 years old and then starting on my life’s purpose. But what is my purpose. Before I had kids I really wanted to be in the medical field. I still really would love that. I love missions.  I love to help people.  I also love my kids. I want what is best for them. I want to be able to give them all of me. But can I tell you it is just so exhausting sometimes. Is my purpose still medical…or is it different. Did it go out the window because I now have 4 kids. I feel like life is slipping by and I am not doing all that God intended for me to do, but I don’t know what it is exactly he wants me to do. Dont get me wrong I enjoy life. I love life, but there has to be more. There has to be more than this! I have been praying, praying, praying, NO answer yet. I know God does that sometimes so I need to keep praying.  Maybe the answer is in front of me and I just don’t see it. I just don’t know! Does anyone else feel this way or is is just me? The other dilemma I run into, If i get involved in too many things then my house gets SOOOO messy. I hate that. It is like if I don’t stay home all day and clean and pick up and do dinner, clean up the mess, do some laundry every day, it just all piles up. A maid sounds really nice right now. I want to be involved in so many things, but I cant. Because then  my house looks like crud…like how it is right now. It is a never ending vicious cycle. So how do you juggle it all. Just when I think I have it all figured out….I realize that I really don’t. So my prayer today is: Lord, please show me what you want me to do with my life before another day passes by. Show me how to balance everything and keep everything in order. Show me how to teach my kids more about you. Show me how to teach them that they have to rely solely on you. Show me what you want me involved in and what you don’t. Give me patience, and love, and joy, and mercy, and help everything that I speak to glorify you.

Here is Kaitlyn sitting up for the first time. It is about time right….9 months old…

Today we went to a petting zoo and saw some baby animals got to feed some and went on a hay ride. We had lunch at IKEA and then got some stuff for the house. It was fun. I love that you can drop your kids off at IKEA while you shop. It makes the shopping experience to WONDERFUL. Tomorrow is Tony’s birthday. I still need to buy him a gift. I have lots to do tonight. So i better run, enjoy the pictures!