Moments in Time

Well today we had to call 911 cause my baby girl put something in her mouth and was choking. I was at a friends house when it happened. I was freaking out, she was getting red, and gasping. I was trying to pull it out with my finger, then she had some blood come out. Tried flipping her over and hitting her back. Nothing, so I said, we need to call 911 NOW. So we did. By the time they got there she was starting to do better. We did find a piece of something that looked like velum paper that was in her mouth. It was so scary. I have been holding her all afternoon. I can not even let me mind go to the “What If’s!” I am just happy that the Lord was watching over her. And me so I would not have a heart attack. I am CPR certified. But when it is your own baby in distress…all my reason went out the window. If it would have been someone else’s baby I would have been calm. I am just praying that nothing like this ever happens again. The Lord watches over all who Love HIM. And I am thankful today that he did.

So today I have been reflecting my friendships. Past and Present. Have you ever felt like there was something in the way of one of your friendships, but you don’t know what it is.  I feel like that with one of my friendships. It is the strangest thing. I can not put my finger on it. I cherish my friendships that I have. If you are my friend then you are a friend of mine for life. And when a friendship is hurting, it makes me hurt. Or have you seen one of your friends start down a path that did not make sense. And you on the outside could see where it was heading but they couldn’t. And when you try to talk to them about it they just get upset. And you know you are right. And they are just trying to rationalize to make themselves feel better about what there doing. So what do you do, just sit back and watch, try to intervene. I am a fixer. So my first instinct would be to try and help. Or what about if your friend starts doing something and then it starts to really interfere with your friendship. Friendship can be a complex thing, or maybe I am making it more complex than it should be. Or when a friend hurts you. Hhmmm, maybe I need to listen to one of my pastor’s sermons called a Pebble In My Shoe. So today I am feeling a bit hurt. I normally am able to just shake stuff off, but this one thing is really getting under my skin. And it is making me upset. And I feel like I have lost a friend. And that is down right upsetting. So what am I going to do…well how do some homemade chocolate chip cookies and a big glass of milk sound??