Simply Heidi

We had a great time in MO. It was fun to get to know my sisters boyfriend while driving a total of almost 16 hours. I think he is officially now part of the family!!! I had lots of fun with my friend Ruth. Loved watching our girls play together. I hope they are good friends one day. Lots of yummy food. My diet totally went out the window. I am sure I gained back all the weight that I have lost. The Joyce Meyer service was actually really good. The worship was really awesome and the speaking was good. I know Ben got totally spoiled by my mom and he loved every minute of it. She bought him a gallon of chocolate milk and put a straw in it and told him to get sips whenever he wanted. So he drank the whole gallon in one day and then she was wondering why he would not eat dinner!!!! I guess that is what grandmas are for. But I must say that I really really missed my Tony. I found myself wanting to call him all the time. I guess it is a good thing that I am so in love with my husband. I am off to get the house cleaned up!

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

Did you see her little sunburn. I did not even think about sunscreen today. Her little arms are a bit burned as well. It is so sad.

The kids had fun playing at the park all afternoon. We met there with our children’s department. I personally was exhausted because I was chasing them around all afternoon. But I guess as long as they had fun, that is all that counts!

Bryce is doing much better off all his medicine. He is on one new medicine that has made a world of difference. I mean within two days he was much better. I don’t think I have ever been so incredibly irritated with a doctor till this one. I feel like calling him and complaining about all that he had my son on and how over drugged he was. I have one word for that Ridiculous!!!

This week I need to get the house all in order since I am going to MO for the weekend. I will be picking up my sisters boyfriend and he will drive with me and the 2 little kids. Tony will be doing some bonding time with the older two. I am excited because I will be staying with my very very good friend Ruth and we will be going to hear Joyce Meyer speak that Friday night at James River.  Eating at my favorite place “the tea room”, and just getting some good old girl talk! Visit my old church, see my mom and sisters. And how could I forget to mention ANDY’S FROZEN CUSTARD!!! Oh I cant wait! I am so excited! Ben is so excited about going to see his Nana all by himself. He thinks that is pretty cool and I am sure he will get spoiled rotten.

So I have been wondering where all the Easter candy was going? Then as I was cleaning my room I find this pile of wrappers by my stand…who might you ask is the little thief…well none other than Benjamin!!!

He is so addicted to chocolate. He loves it! And as you can see in the picture it looks like he had himself quite the little party. I did not know that three year olds could like chocolate as much as there mommy. He was also very proud to fess up to eating it all as well. I wish I could have caught him in the act!

So today was my son’s pre-RUSH visit for his allergy imunotherapy. He is supposed to start that on Monday…we will see if that still happens. We got to the doctor and it was supposed to be a 15 minute visit. They were going to check his Lung capacity. He did not do good on the first one so they did it two more times. By now an hour had gone by. Then they needed to check his peak flow…another hour…then to visit with the Dr…almost another hour. So come to find out he is still wheezing pretty bad, and his cough, weather, and allergies are not helping. He does have bronchitis. He mentioned that I might go to the Dr. as well since I am coughing so much as well. So we are on 6 different medicines to help him over come this so we can go through with therapy on Monday. 2 of the medicines alter his mood and gives him bad mood swings. If he is still coughing bad we will cancel and wait another 3 weeks. I know he needs all the medicine but how can all that be good for you? I am really just trusting God to get me through the next week or two with him and his moods! Oh and No exersice what so ever and no being outside. So that could be enough to drive any mom nutso!!! He is very disappointed he will not be able to play in the game this weekend. He has two scheduled. But we are going to have him sit through it if it is not cold out.

My middle sons hand is doing so much better today. The blisters look like they could pop any time. So I will be keeping a close eye on it and trying to keep his hand as clean as 4 year olds hand can be!

While in Target waiting for his perscriptions the kids were getting really impatient. So we managed to eat all the cookie samples, and cheese samples, and some bread, and meat! I know I am not the only mom that does that to keep her kids quiet. It was lunch time after all! Once we ate them all we headed for the toy aisle to look around. And my kids confessed to me that they had no toys and they wanted and needed everything they saw. They have so many toys it is crazy. No one got any new toys today and of course I was the meanest mom ever!!! We did buy new knobs for the two little boys dresser. My middle son said very loudly,” Oh mommy these are the best knobs ever. I always wanted them!” He is sooo funny, the simplest things please him and make him happy.

Funny Chandler and Ben story:

Chandler: Ben I am going to act like you are the customer and I will carry your back pack and babies up the stairs to your hotel room. And then you ask me what happened to my hand.

Benjamin: In a husky voice, Hi sir can you carry my bags, and what happened to your hand.

Chandler: Well sir, I am a fire fighter and I burned my hand. See the blisters.

Benjamin: Oh wow, I bet your mommy was sad!

It was so funny. They were acting it all out as well. Those two boys crack me up!

Now I am off to the gym to work out and de-stress myself. The doctor appointments really wear me out. I don’t know why…they just do.

Isaiah 40:31 “But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” 

We had a very long day yesterday. We got home around 4 and we all crashed till about 8. Got up to make a late dinner. Cooked french toast, and then Chandler my middle son put his whole hand on the burner….Immediately it was blistering up and red. And he was crying. So we kept it in ice water and that really was not helping much. After talking with a nurse we decided to take him to the ER. Thankfully since he was screaming so loud they got us back right away, only to discover there was not one room or bed for him to lie on. So back to the waiting room. The Dr. just decided to see us out there in the waiting room since he was in so much pain. They gave him a nice dose of pain medicine and knocked him right out. Then they were able to bandage the wounds and get it all wrapped. He has second degree burns all over his little hand. We have to change the dressing 2 times a day for 4 days. We have a follow up tomorrow with his pediatrician. It was so horrible knowing that he was in pain yet I could do nothing for him. I kept singing to him in the ER till they knocked him out. It was a gut wrenching experience to say the least.

Today I am meditating on this scripture:

Though the fig tree may not blossom,
Nor fruit be on the vines;
Though the labor of the olive may fail,
And the fields yield no food;
Though the flock may be cut off from the fold,
And there be no herd in the stalls-
Yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
I will joy in the God of my salvation.
The Lord God is my strength;
He will make my feet like deers feet,
And he will make me walk on my high hills”
-Habakkuk 3:17-19

To me this means that no matter what I am going through I will fully rely on God as my strength, I will continue to rejoice in him.

I have been in such a pondering mode lately. I seem to be driving myself nuts trying to contemplate on everything. I am watching people. Seeing who people really are or aren’t. Seeing in them what I don’t want to be. The past few weeks God has seemed so close to my heart. He always seems close to me, but he just seems to be sitting right there next to me. Like I feel it so real. I feel so broken inside. Not like I am sad or anything, just broken and very much aware that I am absolutely nothing without Him. He gives me a new day, everyday. He has given me so much. I am so thankful. I am so humbled by it all. I just love Jesus and want him to consume every part of me.

So I have been working out everyday. And I am so sore right now. The trainer dude…wore me out. He kept saying come on you can do this just 10 more. As he stands there in his “muscle glory”….of course he can tell me just 10 more cause it is so easy for him. UGH. I know in time it will get easier for me as well. I am taking the day off today to do laundry. I am trying to figure out a good routine for me for working out, cleaning house, making dinner, devotions, church, kids, husband. I have decided that naps are no longer an option for me. I have always liked to take an hour nap when the kids are sleeping, but I have to much to do and not enough time in my day to do it. So naps are out the window. I am also sick with a nasty cough, so I think taking the day off from working out will give my body some time to recoup from throwing it in front of a treadmill and weights!

So right now I am a WIFE and MOM. And I am satisfied with that. I love my family. I love being able to give to them. To cook for them. Play with them. I get frustrated sometimes cause they don’t always say thank you for cleaning the toilets, ( except for my husband, he is great about saying thank you…Honey you really are the best. You are always saying thank you to me for doing things), But my kids DONT. If I worked I would get a nice pay check to say thank you for working or a boss to say thank you. I think moms often forget that Mom’s do have a boss. His name is Jesus. He is my ultimate boss. And he says thank you to me every single day. He has given me these kids and husband to take care of. It is part of my job to clean the toilets,cook, vacuum, discipline when needed, and the list could go on. Don’t get me wrong I think kids need chores and my kids will learn to clean toilets and take part of my load so they are not lazy when they are older. But Jesus has entrusted me with one of the hardest and greatest jobs ever. And I have to keep the mentality that I really am doing this for HIM, and not for the kids or hubby. Only Jesus can satisfy me completely. And he does. I am not perfect, but I strive to please him everyday in all that I do. To give only my very best, and sometimes I don’t.. I fail miserably. But it is so good to know, that Jesus doesn’t fire me from my job when I do fail. Daily I have to find my joy and strength, and courage, and self esteem in HIM alone. I think it is so important that we daily find those needs that we have in Jesus alone, or we do go and look for something to fill those voids and honestly nothing is ever going to satisfy us like Jesus does. Suggestion: Put some praise music on while you clean or do laundry. You can ask anyone in my house if that is how I clean….and they will tell you it is. We sing while we clean. And it keeps it in my mind that this is for HIM. And crank the sound up while you clean! And sing loud, maybe throw in a dance or two with your kids. It is amazing how much fun you will have!
And on a more funny note. EVERY SINGLE TIME I MAKE A GRILLED CHEESE SANDWICH IT LOOKS LIKE THIS! I can make the most yummy foods, but grilled cheese….NOPE! IT ALWAYS is BURNT to a CRISP! No wonder my kids hate it when I say we are having grilled cheese and soup for dinner!