Today I ran about 3 miles at the gym and did some weights…can I tell you I was exhausted by the end of it all. So I went to take my shower at the gym and in the shower next to me I heard this little girl and mom. The little girl said to the mom, ” Next time I will remind you to bring your razor because your legs are hairy mom!!!” The mom started to shush the little girl and say,”don’t talk so loud!” It was so funny. I was laughing so hard. That sounds like something my kids would say.
The next few days are going to be so busy for us. And I am trying to get Bryce ready to go on his trip. I am serious I just seem busier and busier. I am really trying to cut back on stuff and just when I feel like I am…I get slammed with tons more stuff to do.
This past weekend we painted the rest of the inside of the house. I told Tony lets just do that hallway…and before you know it we had done the hallway, stairs, playroom, and the 2 hall ways upstairs and part of the living room. It was so much work, but I am happy that it is done. I still need to do some touch ups but it looks really good. We also got the gutters cleaned out and the branches trimmed away from our house. Me and my hubby work so well together.
So I just completed my tea towel for my swap partner. I think I did a pretty good job considering it was my first time to stamp and then stitch something on.
I was driving with my son Chandler and he said ” mom i heard it was going to rain and we were going to have “funder” storms”
ME: Really, well that is good the grass needs the rain Chandler: I am not scared mom ME: That is good, why are you not scared? Chandler: Because Jesus always sits very close to me and I just have to talk to him when I am scared. And then he talks to my heart! And mom did you know that he sits on my bed too while I am sleeping.
Then A few weeks earlier. He was talking to my other sister Hope who is studying to be a nurse. He was playing with her stethoscope. He had it in his ears and then was trying to listen to his own heart. He said to her, “Hopey I can hear Jesus talking to my heart right now”
I look at just those 2 stories and think to myself, “wow I am getting the point across to them!” I am so happy that he gets it even at a young age. That he understands that Jesus does talk to you, and that he is always with you. His faith in Jesus is so genuine and pure. He has so much faith. The other day I was talking to my mom on the phone about something and did not think I could do something. I guess he over heard much of my conversation because he came up to me and said “Mom we just have to have faith because the Bible says that you can even have enough faith to move a whole mountain.” Wow!!!
That is what God wants, for us to have that kind of child like faith!
It is pouring rain here. I love the rain. I loved it when we lived in Costa Rica and it would rain every day on our tin roof. Makes me want to drink coffee and read or cross-stitch, or take a nap. I just laid the kids down. I worked outside in the yard most of the day. My sister in law came over to look at the garden and she helped me to tear some things down. I am pooped though. SO were the kids. They love to play outside, what kid doesn’t, but man do they get cranky after being out there all day. Everything looks so green after the rain. And it smells good to.
Right now I am making peach jam. I am doing it in the bread maker. I hope it turns out. If it does, I will post the recipe. My sister is coming tomorrow and she likes peaches so I think she will like it as well.
The MRI did not show anything bad. The only thing it showed was his sinuses very infected. So we are on some sinus medicine to help with that. I am very thankful that there was nothing serious going on in the brain.
Okay off to work on my towel for the tea towel swap that I am doing!
So I got a new bread machine for Mothers Day….and I thought you just dumped stuff in there and left it and ta da you have bread!!! But no, it is a little more complicated than that. I am searching the web for some ideas and some recipes to try??
Today Tony had his wisdom teeth taken out (all 4 of them) ….my little chipmunk! Poor Tony… I am happy it was him and not me.
Tomorrow we get the results from the blood work and MRI for Bryce. SO I am patiently waiting.
I have been so busy. I have had some really funny things happen with Ben lately, and then I sit down at night to right them here and forget!!! Today though I was on the phone, and he was in my room and he was putting colored push pins in my bed. Like pushing them down into the mattress, kind of like a pin cushion. And then all you saw on top was the different color tops. He made a design of some sort, and was so proud to show me. I walked in the room and he said look what I made you…I wanted to say,” a big mess”, but i bit my tongue and looked at the nice mess that he made me, and then we picked it up together. He said so seriously, ” I worked very hard on it mommy”
And then in our bedroom we do not have a picture above the bed yet…just have not found the right one yet. So Chandler colored all these batman pictures and taped them right about my bed frame. He was like now you can have a batman room. He said, “daddy will love it” Such a boy for ya! He is so thoughtful. It makes me wonder though how many times he has heard me say ,”I wish I had a picture above my bed!”
Okay I need to tend to Tony. I have so much more to write, but family is first.
Well we picked up the little boys from my sister who was nice enough to drive them back down from MO. I was so excited to see them. AND I have never seen them so excited to see me…I should have video taped the moment!!! It is so good to have everyone back together again. We are just not complete when one of the kids are missing. Even though they do leave me messes everywhere!
We visited our friends son in the hospital Thursday night, Friday morning I had a 2 hour meeting, then I was gone all day doing errands, Friday night Birthday party for my nephew, This Morning Bryce had a baseball game, came home after the game made lunch, now he has another game which Tony is taking him too, then we have church, and we have to be at both services tomorrow…… BREATHE!!!!! OH my word…I have no weekend. Every moment is being taken up by something! BREATHE….that is just what I am trying to do today!!! It seems like the older I get the faster time goes by. And it seem s that I have more stuff to do.
This is Bryce’s last week of school. I am trying to get a really good schedule set up for the boys so our summer stays really structured. That is how they function the best. They are all going to go to Vacation Bible School, and they are pretty excited about that. Even Ben gets to go this year. He thinks he is such a big boy. And he is. I love those 3 boys.
My yoga is going well. I am so sore when I am done. I don’t know if it is helping my weight but I guess only time will tell. I am still working out quite a bit. Tony has lost 16 pounds. I wish my weight was coming off like that. Man it is not fair.
I am going to participate in a Tea Swap at Crafty Daisies. I got some stuff that I am going to use to make mine…and I cant wait to get one as well.
Oh and my peppers have finally bloomed. I have 5 that are growing, and my sister in law has 3 tomatoes…finally. I am so excited. I will be sure to post some new pictures next week of it all.
Well the MRI went smoothly. Before the MRI my son called down to the nurses station and said ” Could you please send a nice cold bottle of water to my room” I was laughing so hard. It was so cute. He was so serious. Of course he did not get one, since he could not eat or drink before the MRI.
So tomorrow at 1 my oldest will be getting an MRI. He will have to be sedated. I am kind of nervous about that. But I know that these pediatric doctors do this every single day. I spoke with the anesthesiologist tonight and he made me feel good about everything. They will also be drawing 22 vile’s of blood, to check for some other things. That is a lot of blood. I know that God will cradle Bryce in his hands tomorrow. So I will just leave it at that. The doctors office was supposed to call me last Friday for when it was scheduled. Nothing. So I have been calling every single day multiple times. Finally today after spending 45 minutes on hold I found out that it is for tomorrow. Crazy. I had so speak to different people, explain everything. So frustrating.
The little boys will be coming home from Mo on Thursday night late. I miss them so much. My house is so clean right now…but I honestly can say I miss tripping over there toys. Or Ben telling me how hungry he is after I just fed him a huge lunch. Or Chandler trying to explain something to me in 20 different ways. He is very worried that Kaitlyn has grown or is talking. I got there beds all washed and put a little car that I got them under there pillows. Oh I cant wait to give them both a hug and kiss! Now I was told today that my sweet Ben colored with a permanent marker all over my cousin’s leather couch…her new leather couch. What do you say to that…I am sorry! I was mortified. But thankful that it was not my couch….I researched this afternoon on how to get it out and called her with the info. Hopefully it will help. He loves markers. He likes to color walls. Oh yes, once he colored a whole picture on my wall with marker, but thank God for Magic Eraser. Of course I think that just made him think “oh mommy has an eraser for my art work”!!
Well I want to first of all say thank you to my hubby for buying me a bread machine. I am very excited about making some homemade bread. I know…I know…I am weird! Thank you for being such a wonderful husband, father, and my best friend! You are amazing. You are my Rock! I love you so much and love you more and more every single day….even though you leave your clothes on the bathroom floor!!!!
And to my mom. You are amazing. It is just that simple. You are courageous. You are humble. You are full of wisdom. You are gracious. You are loving. You are forgiving. You are a great friend. You are a rock…that I like to lean on! You are so loving. You have shown me so many wonderful things. I am so thankful for you today. Thank you, thank you, and thank you for being my mom.
So I have really debated on whether or not to share what we are going through. And although I will not go into great detail yet on my son, I want to protect him as well. I will share some because I really think that it could be a blessing to another mom who is going through something similar.
So my son as of now has been diagnosed as being bipolar. There are lots of great medicines out there to help children live normal lives with this disorder. And I do believe that God gave us medicine to use sometimes. I also know though that God is the great healer. And that is my deepest desire for my son. That his mind, body, soul, would be healed completely. I know that HE can. I know he is capable. And I leave it at his feet. I will be posting more on the disorder in the week to come. We will also be running some more tests this week. Pray for us!
It is a very tiring experience. If you have a child with a disorder like this, it can be very hard. I am learning this though, it is not my fault. I am a good mom. And if you are struggling with this and feel like a bad mom that is totally a lie from the enemy. Having a child with special needs, regardless of the need, can make your parenting experience hard. But that is where the grace of God comes into play. Grace for our children. He can give us the love that we need for them. The patience. The wisdom. He really can give us all that we need to parent. I am not perfect in any of this by any means. But I know I try my best to do what is best for my children. And I know God will honor that. I have not given up. I am in a fierce race. I feel like the “mother bear” has come out of me. I feel the need to intercede more for my children. There is a war out there for there minds. And I refuse to give in. I will win.
My son wrote a song about God and when I read it I teared up, because that is my son. I know his heart is tender!
Carry Me:
Lord, carry me on your back.
Lord I am crying out to you, please answer me.
Cause I am crying to you tonight.
Come Lord. Come Lord.
Please Lord carry me.
Lord I cried out to you and you answered me.
You lifted me up on your shoulders.
Carry me.
He is a child of God. He was created in His image. He formed him before I ever knew him. So if you are struggling today be encouraged! God is in control. I know that HE is growing me and Tony. And if I have to walk through this to help just one person, then great! I believe that we walk through things for many reasons, but I think one reason is to help others with similar things.
So the official name for our dog is OREO!! The kids have really taken to him. Bryce has been sleeping with him every night. It is pretty cute.
Today I drove half way and met my mom and dropped off Chandler and Benjamin to her. She will be keeping them for the next 11 days. My house is SOOOO quiet. It is almost scary, but I am not complaining….it has been relaxing.
So we have alot going on in our house right now with my oldest son. I can not really elaborate on what. But our life will not be the same from now on. I have so many questions going on in my head. Why me…has been my top one. But “why not me”, the Bible never said I would be without problems. I am heading into this problem with full force. I am trusting the Lord to show me stuff, and give me wisdom beyond my years right now. I am asking for his peace. His joy. His strength. I am fully determined to come out on the mountaintop and give him the glory for what he has done. It does not mean the road will be easy. I know full well it will be hard. But I also know beyond a shadow of a doubt that He will carry me and my family through this trial. He will guide us. He will protect us. He will hide us in the shadow of his wings. He is going to grow us. Mature us. When I was driving home today, I felt lonely for a few minutes, and then I began to look around and everything was so beautiful. So green and crisp. And I was gently reminded that He is all around me, He is everywhere I go, He who created all of that cares so much for me. So I am thankful today for my trial that awaits me. I know it will bring me closer to Jesus. It will bring my family closer together. It is going to make me a better person. Like I said earlier, I know it is going to be soooo hard to walk through and in those moments I will walk hour by hour.
My strength comes from you Jesus.
Oh I almost forgot to mention that I got my box from the craft swap I was doing. Stephanie sent me all sorts of goodies. Felt, socks, silly putty, the cutest frog that opens his mouth and there are flies inside, knitting stuff, home made earrings, shrinky dinks, and more but I can not remember. I hope she enjoyed my box as well. This was my first swap that I have done. Next time I will be sure to stuff even more inside. Thank you so much Stephanie for all the wonderful goodies. The boys like the stuff that you sent for them as well! There will be another craft swap at Crafty Daisies in the late summer, you can check it out here!
