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See I am normal…

So today has been exhausting. The kids have been so fussy. The girls are fussy. My house is…well I have dishes to be done, and I am behind on laundry. I am trying to get ready for VBS, my kindergartners graduation, 2 birthday parties, the gerbil cage needs to cleaned out, there are toys everywhere, I still need to cook dinner, We have church tonight, I need to mop my floor, I need to go to the grocery store, did I mention the dishes and laundry yet and I think my dog needs counseling since he thinks he is a cat! I am tired tonight. I am sitting here watching the kids jump on the couch, Kaitlyn keeps taking Krystinas toys away, my oldest just ran by outside with the water hose…..he must be up to something. Anyways, I am tired tonight. TIRED!!! I am watching all these monkeys run around and I am just thinking…wow there are 5 of them! I am not thinking what the heck am I doing with our 5th child in the house, please dont get that idea! ….I am just tired. I am normal. I have my days of being tired!

And I find this song…You are my hiding place. And I have to stop and regroup…and my trust is in you. I am weak tonight, but I know you are strong. And so tonight I need you to carry me Lord. Give me the strength for the rest of the day. Help me to completely rest in you Lord.

The people we touch…

I just cant even begin to tell you how touched I am by my work. There is a mom named Lara, who just happened to hear what me and Tony were doing with Kim and Krystina. And she took it upon herself to send out a letter to the MDO program asking for donations to help us out. I did not even know this mom. But do you see how the gift of giving can keep on giving? Isn’t it great.

I have told the story over and over again. And I really need to say this again. I am nothing spectacular for what we are doing. I am not some super mom. I am just a vessel here on this earth, that said YES to GOD. We were obedient. He in return has blessed us beyond my words can describe…and I am not just talking about money here. He has been so faithful to this whole situation. I am humbled that He even saw me fit to do what we are doing. That he trusted me that much. WOW. So what is he asking you to do? Are you going to say YES? Sometimes we have to take that leap of faith. That is what me and Tony did. We did not know all this was going to play out…can I be honest I dont know if I would have said yes, if you would have told me okay you are going to take in a mom, then discover she does drugs, then get her to Teen Challenge, pay for her to be there for a year or so, take care of her daughter when I already have 4 kids, deal with her extended family, and my list could go on. But you know what God has given us peace through this whole process, and I am happy that I did say yes. This is why God does not always tell us what will happen or we would say “no” to often. We have to have faith that when we say YES, that he will work out all the details. None of this took God by surprise. He knew…or he planned for all this to happen. We just happen to be part of the process. And can I just tell you again, God has been SUPER amazing at working out all the details. To see God’s hand at work….it should not shock me, because he after all is GOD. He is the one that placed all the stars in the sky, knows all the hairs on my head, knows how many sand pebbles are on the beach. I want to see the end of this story, but I know that I cant. It is a day by day process. We are just walking in the moment. :)

I am so thankful for the friends that have walked with us on this journey so far. It sounds like it has been a long time when in fact it has only been going on 4 weeks. :) I have some amazing friends. I am blessed.

I want God to receive all the glory in this. He is ALL THAT! I hope that every time I tell the story that people will see God’s goodness, see his faithfulness, his sovereignty, his plan for his people, his mercy, his loving kindness. And my list can go on. We serve a good God.

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Creepy Crawling Things…

So this weekend we worked in the yard a lot. It really needed our attention, anyways, we found a nest of snakes. We were able to kill one, but the others got away. Today we found one more, but it got away. We found a long snake skin, probably the moms. ANYways, I so terrified of snakes. SO GROSS. It makes me want to move. What if my kids pick one up, or get bit!

And then we found this nasty spider with her egg sack on her back….oh gosh…I screamed when I saw it…I hate spiders too. They give me the shivers!

And this little boy, said he was wearing the glasses to help defend the ant hills! He is SO CUTE!

And this last photo from the weekend is from Chandler. He wrote out all that music and then sang me a song. Maybe he will be a musician someday! He was so proud of himself. And I was quite impressed too!

Well me and my honey are going to relax for bit….we are plum tuckered out!

The Penny

I wanted to share this story that was written by Jack Hayford. It is a great story, so if you can take the time to read it, please do so. The one thing that God is showing me through this whole process with Kim and her baby girl, is that no one is too far from God that he can’t make ways to bring him back to Him. That His love for the lost is great. That we can make a difference in just one soul at a time. That there are people all around us that need us, we just have to be willing to be open. And when we are obedient it often requires sacrifice, but our God is so faithful. We have seen that proven to us over and over again the past 3 weeks. I should not be amazed…but I am actually in awe at the Lord and how he has worked everything out. EVERYTHING! Down to the little details. God really enjoys meeting the details of our life.

NOTHING more aptly frames the heart of Father God’s love for people than the sacrifice and resurrection of His Son. And while God’s love for the world is inclusive of every human being, it is also very specifically directed at each one of us. This heavenly truth was brought to my earthly understanding several years ago. I’d just finished a meeting at a local restaurant and was walking across the parking lot to my car when I looked down and noticed a penny on the asphalt. Frankly, I thought, “It’s more work to stoop over and pick up that thing than it’s worth.” But as I was about to get into my car, there came a whisper in my soul from the heart of God: “It’s still ONE.” And I knew the Lord was talking about His heart for people.

I recognized God wanting to sensitize me to His great love for people and the preciousness of every one. So I bent down and picked up the penny. I wasn’t looking for them, but in the three weeks that followed, more than a dozen times, I found a penny. They “just appeared.”

Walking through a mall, I spotted a penny in a shadowed area under a ledge. The only reason I saw it was because of the Lord’s prompting. I felt self-conscious about getting down on one knee to reach over and get that penny, no one paid any attention to me. But the Lord knew the penny was there.

One afternoon I was walking across a busy street, and I saw a penny laying in the middle of traffic. Cars were whizzing by-I wasn’t even in a crosswalk-so I went and waited at the curb until there was a break. I knew I needed to be mindful to go back and get that penny. When I retrieved it, the penny looked like a steam roller had gone over it. It was misshaped and pocked with bits of gravel that had been ground into it. It was in really bad shape.

A couple of days later I was passing through the utility room in our house, and there was a penny lying on top of the washer. I asked my wife, Anna, “Honey, what’s this penny here?” She said it had been left in someone’s pocket. I took that penny and added it to the rest.

Finally, I was returning home on a flight that took me through the Atlanta airport, where I had a brief layover. It was very late at night. I went into the men’s room, and on the floor by the urinal was a penny. It was filthy. Doubtless, the place had not been cleaned for hours. But I could not refuse to pick up that penny. I knew I was being taught something about the heart of God. I grabbed a handful of paper towels, blotted things up – finally, I picked up the penny with a paper towel, put it the sink, and used all the soap there was to wash it. I took the penny home, keenly aware I was…that Jesus came not only so all people might be forgiven and receive eternal life, but also to overthrow everything that withers our present experience in this present moment: “For this purpose the Son of God was manifested, that He might destroy the works of the devil” (1 John 3:8).

How precious is the one who may be right there in the open, like that penny in the parking lot. There are people who are wide open to the love of God. Others, living in the shadows of loneliness or shame, are uncertain about it. People are passing by, but nobody notices them, and they feel uncared for. The tenderness of God’s heart caused my eye to fall on that penny in the shadows. I had to bend down and reach behind the ledge to get it. It would have been easy for me to think, “I’m not going to do this because people will think it looks dumb.” A loving God is willing to stoop with complete indifference to what anyone else thinks because of how precious you are to Him. The penny in the street was flattened and scarred. There are people who look good on the outside, but their soul has been pulverized. The story behind that damage would be a tender one to hear, but God already knows it. Though that penny wouldn’t be worth anything to anybody else, it was still one. The busy traffic kept me from picking it up, so I waited.

That last penny, the one I found in the airport bathroom, wasn’t really lying on the floor beside the urinal; it was in the urinal. God was making clear to me that there isn’t anywhere He won’t reach; there isn’t any one He won’t reach to. It can be the person who is wide open, like the penny on the sidewalk. Or the person who is hiding in the shadows. Or like the penny that had been through the washer, one who’s been through a storm of circumstances. The parable of the pennies is the story of the love of God for people. Its lesson is that each one of us is precious to the heart of God. That He wants to touch each one with the compassion, tenderness, hope, and victory of the Savior. And that out of His love, He is willing to reach into the most problematic, darkened, washed-up, or fouled circumstance…”

Precious In His Sight!

Thank God it is FRIDAY!!!!!

I am so thankful today is Friday. Because, I dont have to work, and I get to spend the whole weekend with Tony! One of my favorite things to do! I was telling some friends at work yesterday…that I could not do what I do without my honey….We work so good together as a team. I think we have an exceptional marriage. I know I am blessed to have someone that helps out so much around the house, and that works hard, that loves his family so much. I love you ANTHONY!!!

Okay before you all throw up with my sweet talk to my honey….let’s just say it has been a tiring week. I am getting used to have the 5 kids running around. Going from 4 to 5 is a big difference. No one could convince me otherwise! But we are getting the swing of things. Krystina is doing really good. She ran a high fever all afternoon and through last night. But after much prayer, it has broke and she seems fine this morning. I am serious I was praying hard. She is not on our insurance yet, and even though we could pay for her to go in….what a waste of money. Doctors really rip people off if they dont have insurance. So 5 is different. I tried going to Target the other day…it was basically really crazy. :) We did not stay long. I am sure I will get the hang of it, but for now I prefer to stay close to home. It is so fun to watch Kaitlyn with Krystina. She is so motherly. Any time she cries, she pats her back and says “okay,,,its okay” It is sweet. My friend Beth got her some new outfits. Which was a blessing. And some other moms from my class brought her clothes. Thank you again Beth for going to do that. I appreciate you and LOVE your little Jake. He is the sweetest thing! I work with a good group of people. I have made some good friends there. And it helps that I have the best boss ever. Love you Debbie!

The other night we went to the Rainforest Cafe for dinner. We have eaten there before, but Wed night…my Ben totally freaked out. He sat under the table and cried and cried. We were sitting next to the waterfall, after the girls started crying we asked to be moved to a different table, we thought maybe it was just too loud right there. And it was a bit loud. So we move to one of the big fish tanks….still crying. Then my eldest told Ben that the BIG frog was going to come out and get him. I was like “hello that is not helping matters here” My oldest thought it was pretty funny that a frog could scare him. Anyways, it was not a peaceful dinner. And I don’t think we will be going back there to eat again. :(

My friend Joy
asked how long we would be keeping the baby. We will have her for at least 15 months…probably longer than that. And the mom is gone from our home. She will live at the teen challenge center. She will not be allowed to see the baby for the first 4 months of the program. And then after that she can earn one weekend pass a month. The program she is in…is quite intense, but they have a good success rate for helping these girls with there issues. And with God anyone can change. We really believe in her, and believe that God is going to transform her life over the next 15 months. Thank the Lord God is still in the business of totally transforming lives that were in the pits. Please keep her in your prayers if you think of it.

Well…I must work on laundry. I really don’t want too, but you know….we kind of need clean clothes to wear. :) Have an AWESOME FRIDAY!!!

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More changes…

Isn’t it funny that when you say Yes to God to do something, what you think he has in store…is not really what He had in store. So we are right now, to be more flexible, learning to be even more gracious, learning to be even more encouraging of others, learning to trust God more, learning to not have so much faith in my OWN plans, and remembering that God ultimately controls my life.

I am not going to go into a lot of details about Kim for the sake of her privacy, but she will be going to Teen Challenge for a period of a year or more. We will be keeping her daughter during this time. Huge change huh? So we will have 5 kids running around our house. WOW!!! I think I might have NUTS inscribed in my forehead. I think that sometimes, but I also know we really feel like God knew this would happen. He had mine and Tony’s hearts ready for whatever. And so here we are embarking on yet another new journey. :) Pray for the baby during this transition time and please be praying for Kim as she starts this program. That she would be encouraged and stay strong.

After church last night we got a phone call that my aunts sister died last night. You would think well that is your aunt’s sister so what is the big deal. Well my family is very close, even the extended family is very close to us, and attends all activities that our family has. So please keep our family in our prayers as they get ready for the funeral and what not. :)

So, that is it for tonight. I need a good nights rest!

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The big Day

So tomorrow is the big day where we will all…all 8 of us ride in the car to church together. I wonder what it will be like. Screaming, fighting, maybe peaceful, I really doubt that it will be tranquil. But we will all be together, and for that I am thankful.

Today has been a very BUSY day. Holly and her husband spent the night last night and stayed till about 1:30 today. Then my friend Michelle came over and dropped off a nice crib for Kim, with mattress and bedding. Big blessing. We got it all set up. And it looks good. THANK you MICHELLE! I appreciate you. Then our friends Bruce and Ruth came over and spent some time with us. Which we loved. We always like to spend time with them. And so do my kids. My kids are beginning to look at them like grandparents. And I know they are way to young to be grandparents, but I appreciate the time that they have invested into my kids. And the fact that they love on them so much. WE LOVE YOU GUYS and APPRECIATE YOU!!!! Tonight Kim gave me a big hug before bed and told me thanks in a quiet whisper. :) Things are going good for her so far. We have had a busy week getting settled in, Kaitlyn had pneumonia and that took a lot of my energy, lots of phone calls for Kim, getting things that she needed, and my list could go on. Over all considering the sick kids, it was a good week. And week number 2 starts.

That leads us to tonight and I am plum worn out! Is this what 30 is going to feel like. The aches and pains are coming. The memory loss. The tiredness. Oh to be 16 again. :) I kept telling Tony man I am so tired. Why am I so tired. He was like, “babe you have been going since 7:30 this morning.” Oh yeah, that is why. How did I forget that!
Tomorrow we have a baby shower to go to. And then the usual Sunday laundry, and dishes. And a nap, if we can squeeze one in. Yard work, playing with the kids and getting ready for Monday. Hope everyone has a wonderful Sunday!

So proud…

This afternoon I had a parent teacher conference with my oldest teacher. SHE SAID HE WAS MR.WONDERFUL. She had all super positive things to say. He is reading way above his level. He is now doing 5th grade math stuff on Study Island. She said the questions he asks during discussion time are so interesting and complex for a 3rd grader. She said he was one student that she would love to know where he ends up and what kind of job he lands. WOW! I was blown away. I knew he was smart, but….She also gave us one of his papers and she said that we should submit it for a contest for writing. I AM SO STINKING PROUD OF HIM! SO PROUD!

As far as the babies go, my baby girl threw up a few times last night and ran a fever and was up most of the night. SHE was super cranky all day. Has not eaten. Poor baby. The other baby is cranky too and still not feeling well. :(

Today I had to do an online driving school…because I got a ticket and this helps reduce the cost of my ticket. Well I saved it for the last minute….anyways, I passed with an 85%…so pitiful. IT WAS SO BORING!!!I mean so boring. And then I got to the last segment of it, and it was some parents talking about there loss of there son to a drunk driver. The gospel message was clearly presented in that segment as the parents talked. What was I doing…crying. I could just feel there pain. And was so impressed that they allowed God to be spoken of the way He was. Think of all the unsaved or backslidden people that are required to watch that…I wonder if they head to a church after that. You never know how God is going to use things.

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Sick Babies=Tired Mommies

So yeah the title of the post basically describes our house today in a nut shell. My Kaitlyn has a mild case of pneumonia. Yes, Pneumonia. So we are doing breathing treatments 3 times a day and she is on antibiotics. And she is very clingy and miss grumpy pants. But can we blame her, she has pneumonia! And Miss Krystina is teething and very GRUMPY. She seems to be getting a cold as well. We were on the phone for awhile today to see if we could get her to a doctor, but according to Penny in MO, she has to have loss of limb, or life threatening for it to be covered while away. Which makes no sense to me at all because what if people travel and there kids get sick, they need to see a dr. You just cant leave them sick, or it could become life threatening. Catch my drift and frustration! Makes me want to be a social worker to help all these poor moms that have to deal with the system. To help our matters here I made and easy dinner, and White Texas Sheet Cake. YUMMY. I would like to say it made things all better, but it just gave me a tummy ache, since I thought that I needed seconds! :)