I love my home. I love everything about it. I really love it at Christmas. It is so pretty. I know this is so vain. To talk all about something that is so temporal. But I really enjoy everything about it. My mom helped me to hang some curtains in the kitchen tonight, and it is even more cozy. I just want to sip on some coffee and sit in there.
Our home is peaceful…except when the kids are playing. But you can just sense the peace in our home. I think it keeps our kids settled. 
I love walking into my room. It is like our own retreat. I do not like the kids in my room. It is my space.
I love our living room. The way we have it arranged right now is nice. I have a habit of changing furniture around, but we have kept it this way for about 6 months. And i love it. We have had fires a lot lately. And I love getting all curled up on the couch to read a book by the fire.
I love all the trees outside. That was a big attraction for us when we bought the home. Of course, raking them all is not always so fun.
I love each of the kids rooms, they are full of so much personality.
I love my home. I am at peace tonight!
Can you believe it, we are still sick. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I have nothing ready. But I am thankful that my family is all here with me…even though we are sick. I will post more once I get all 5 monkeys in bed.
Yep we have sick kids. Chandler started by being REALLY sick. SO sick they thought he had bacterial meningitis and sent us to Children Hospital and we were there for 15 hours. And they had to do a Spinal Tap. Oh my word. Talk about a mom’.s nightmare. He was SO brave though, he did not even cry. I was such a proud mama. He has not eaten in several days and still does not feel well. But he is better than what he was. Well tonight Ben started getting sick. Can we all just say attack from the devil??? Seriously! So anyways, I have been cleaning up lots of throw up. Taking Temperatures. Making soup. Trying to keep 5 kids happy. And keep my own mind sane! So we will be back, once we get some healthy people in the house. I must go lysol some more!
Yep that is my new total. To say I am excited would be an understatement. To go from feeling so miserable and being overweight, to seeing results, after trying everything in the book. I AM EXCITED!!!!
Does it interest you?
Okay…God is BIG! DO YOU REALLY BELIEVE THAT!!! We are back FULL SWING with the adoption with our family. I am so HAPPY!!! I just could not believe that it had come to that head to all end for nothing. WE KNOW beyond a SHADOW OF A DOUBT that the baby belongs with this family. IT is so a GOD thing. Will you pray with us that it happens speedily and fast from this moment on. I don’t want to give out too many details because, well I just need you to pray with us. GOD SPEED!!!!
Why we go through the boys underwear so fast. I always am washing a WHOLE load of whites. With TONS of undies. Today as Ben was getting dressed, I noticed his rear end to look a little bigger! So I asked if he has more than one pair on? So he smiles really big, and takes off one pair, another pair, another pair, another pair! Ouch, you would think he would not like that for how tight that would feel around your stomach. So now I know, and hopefully we have resolved that problem and I wont have to do as much laundry!
That is the thought that keeps running through my head with all this adoption stuff. To finally get to where we were at, to finally see the light at the end of the tunnel, to find the right family, to go through everything that we have gone through. FOR??? It is so frustrating. It actually is beyond frustrating. I don’t have adequate words to write down for how my heart hurts. For how heavy my heart hurts tonight. Thankfully today we had a leadership training, and it really got my mind off of everything. It was so much awesome information. Oh my word, the wisdom that came from these people. I could not write fast enough.
Tonight we are just relaxing and we have church tomorrow. I really want to start a fire, we will see if I can go talk my sweet honey into it…
That would be a good word for how I am feeling at the current moment. I am overwhelmed for many many reasons. Thank God I am taking my supplements and my levels for the adrenal stuff are okay, other wise I think I would be in BIG trouble.
Anyways, the adoption. Oh the adoption. Can I tell you, I never could have thought in my wildest dreams that something would be so complicated. The fathers of this beautiful child. Are dangerous and REALLY bad news. In order to protect all parties involved, I am not going to write about it any further. As of today due to really complicated things, the adoption is off. She is not up for adoption.
I feel like I have been on an emotional roller coaster that keeps going round and round. Just when I thought I was going to get off someone hit the button and sent us spinning again.
We would love for the adoptive family to be able to adopt her. We care for them deeply. I mean, we really really do. They were the family for baby. And we are heartbroken tonight that they will not have the opportunity to adopt her. It is not like the first family, we just knew it was wrong. This family was the one.
Can I tell you SIN really messes things up. God has given us a manual for how we are to live, and we should, because when we dont we fall into the bondage of so much and sometimes when people get so stuck in it, it takes a long time to dig themselves out. I know my God is so big. I know he has a plan for the mom and baby. At this point in this journey, I have NO idea what that entails. It could be anything. We are planning on just enjoying our holiday season coming up. Enjoying the kids. Getting our family back in order. I am excited to have that normalcy back. I am excited to not have to think about this adoption. It will be the first time in MONTHS!!! I am excited to just love on all 5. Put up our Christmas tree. Hang the lights outside. Rake leaves. We love to rack leaves, the kids think it is the best. Especially when you can play in them. Watch late night movies with my honey. Sit by the fire. Just hang and be normal.
I have taken there “real” names off all my posts. We just have to protect ourselves. I am trying to think of some fake names to call them. Any suggestions??? I will most likely be changing my phone number as well. We will let everyone that has it now….have the new one…if you want it! 
Okay well it is a night for me. I am needing a good night sleep. Tomorrow we are going to a big Advocare Event. Hey at least we will be without kids. That is a considered a date to me.
Today I am really tired. Not physically. Just emotionally. Tired of dealing with the adoption stuff. We just want a quick and easy process. Of course, nothing good in life comes easy. Think about the road that we have had to take to get to where we are today. Some said we took the easy way out, when in fact, we took the hardest road possible. I think today, I am irritated that we lost friends throughout this process. When I thought my friendships ran deeper than what they were. I thought it was real, but now looking back I just dont know. How is it you can be friends with someone for so long, and then when you make a decision that feel is not best, they disown you. How is that friendship? Maybe the Lord was getting rid of friendships for us that he did not feel like were helping us grow, I dont know. I am going to do a study again on what God’s word says friendship is. I will let you know what I find out. Or maybe my view tonight is like that because I am emotionally just so tired. Sometimes that is worst than being physically tired. I can say, I really appreciate the friendships that I do have. So if you know you are one of those people, thank you. And if you think to pray. Pray that this adoption stuff would go through quickly. We do really love this family. And we want it done quickly for all parties involved. Pray for more wisdom. Love. Encouragment. Discernment. Hope. and Faith.
Jeremiah 32:17
“Ah, Sovereign LORD, you have made the heavens and the earth by your great power and outstretched arm. Nothing is too hard for you.”
Psalm 120:1
“I call on the LORD in my distress, and he answers me.”
Isaiah 26:3
“You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.”
So Yes I am still here. We have been so busy. Good busy! God is just blessing us like crazy. I am amazed by him. I really am. I know in life you go through the valley and the mountain tops. Right now this is just a good season in our life. The friendships that we have made through Advocare have been such a blessing to us. It is good to have good friends that are genuine. Me and Tony are still loosing weight. I feel so good. If you could have seen me in the beginning of this year with all my adrenal stuff and then see me now. I feel, well I really can not put into words. I am so thankful that we had people take the time with us to show us what to do. That they were genuinely interested in us. I think that is why I love advocare so much, every person I help get on the weight loss stuff, I know I am helping them, or every person that needs energy, I am helping them, or every person that has financial goals, I am helping them. It gives me such satisfaction. So I promise to not post about Advocare every single time. This has just been a good season in our life with this.
