Simply Heidi

So I flew in on Sunday afternoon. And so far this week I have done Krystina’s 3 year check up…took Bryce to the dermatologist…Dentist appointments for Chandler and Bryce, grocery shopping…Oil Change…Packed for next week…Made cupcakes for Ben’s birthday at school…LOTS of laundry…mopped the floors…cleaned all the bathrooms…Made something for my sister’s baby…home schooled Bryce…sent out some important emails…and it is only Wed…and I AM EXHAUSTED. I am literally exhausted. I feel burned out actually. Trying to find a healthy balance to life with all that we have going on. And I am stinking at trying to find that balance. I feel the need to get everything done when I am home since I have been gone to much to be with my mom. The deal though is that, they are things that I DO need to get done. I think I need a maid! That would help and make it all better right? I feel the need to be a perfectionist in my home…because that seems to be the only sense of control that I have, since our worlds have been turned upside down with my mom’s cancer diagnosis. I know this probably makes no sense to anyone that reads it. It is to bad you could not be a fly in my brain! But even trying to be a perfectionist in our home has literally gone flying out the window because well…I am exhausted. So trying to find that balance. Where is it? What does it REALLY look like? What is realistic for right now in this season of our life? I have had to really let go of a lot, in order to keep my sanity. I can’t do everything. But I want to. It is a battle!