So many thoughts right now…
So the official name for our dog is OREO!! The kids have really taken to him. Bryce has been sleeping with him every night. It is pretty cute.
Today I drove half way and met my mom and dropped off Chandler and Benjamin to her. She will be keeping them for the next 11 days. My house is SOOOO quiet. It is almost scary, but I am not complaining….it has been relaxing.
So we have alot going on in our house right now with my oldest son. I can not really elaborate on what. But our life will not be the same from now on. I have so many questions going on in my head. Why me…has been my top one. But “why not me”, the Bible never said I would be without problems. I am heading into this problem with full force. I am trusting the Lord to show me stuff, and give me wisdom beyond my years right now. I am asking for his peace. His joy. His strength. I am fully determined to come out on the mountaintop and give him the glory for what he has done. It does not mean the road will be easy. I know full well it will be hard. But I also know beyond a shadow of a doubt that He will carry me and my family through this trial. He will guide us. He will protect us. He will hide us in the shadow of his wings. He is going to grow us. Mature us. When I was driving home today, I felt lonely for a few minutes, and then I began to look around and everything was so beautiful. So green and crisp. And I was gently reminded that He is all around me, He is everywhere I go, He who created all of that cares so much for me. So I am thankful today for my trial that awaits me. I know it will bring me closer to Jesus. It will bring my family closer together. It is going to make me a better person. Like I said earlier, I know it is going to be soooo hard to walk through and in those moments I will walk hour by hour.
My strength comes from you Jesus.
Oh I almost forgot to mention that I got my box from the craft swap I was doing. Stephanie sent me all sorts of goodies. Felt, socks, silly putty, the cutest frog that opens his mouth and there are flies inside, knitting stuff, home made earrings, shrinky dinks, and more but I can not remember. I hope she enjoyed my box as well. This was my first swap that I have done. Next time I will be sure to stuff even more inside. Thank you so much Stephanie for all the wonderful goodies. The boys like the stuff that you sent for them as well! 
There will be another craft swap at Crafty Daisies in the late summer, you can check it out here!
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hey girl, i love your page here. i look forward to checking it out a little more when i get some time. you children are beautiful and look so VERY fun. it really would be a great time to come visit…i’ll keep that thought tucked away til i find some money. =) about your post here…i don’t know what you all are dealing with but i will be praying for you. you are right that God will see you through it. love ya, friend.
jodi
dear heidi, always remember you are not alone. God works in mysterious ways His magic to perform. In India, we believe in destiny. and each living being comes on this earth with its own destiny. when you are not responsible for your own life, how can you be responsible for someone else’s? Keep your faith strong. Talk to Him. Tell Him’ Father, I leave all my and my family’s problems in your hands.’ Saying this has always strengthened me and I am sure it will help you.
Also, whenever I have a problem I ask myself a question ‘can i do anything to solve this?’ If the answer is YES I go ahead and solve it. But if the answer is NO, then I dont worry anymore as then it becomes HIS problem (since I cant do anything about it anyway!!!)
So cheer up. Share your problems. Maybe someone else can solve it for you!
Love.
Heidi,
I know the Lord is honored by your trust and faith in Him even in the darkest hours … I pray for peace and strength for each of you during this time in your family’s life.